Chapter 15 - The Coastal House

One year exactly after the night I was admitted to the intensive care unit, I stood alone on the wooden balcony of a small, beautiful coastal house. I had bought the property entirely in my own name, with my own money. It wasn't a massive mansion with imported marble; it was a quiet, modest home overlooking the endless, crashing ocean.
The salty sea breeze was cool and refreshing. My scars still tightened painfully when severe storms rolled in off the water, a permanent physical reminder of the price I had paid for my freedom, but my breathing was finally steady. I was no longer suffocating.
The morning mail had brought a thick, cream-colored envelope. I recognized the elegant handwriting instantly. It was a letter from my mother.
I opened it slowly. Inside, she wrote a long, rambling paragraph about how difficult her life was now, how much she missed the old days, and how she magnanimously "forgave me" for tearing the family apart.
I read the words twice, absolutely astounded by her enduring delusion. She still believed she was the victim. She still believed I owed her an apology for surviving.
I laughed once, a short, sharp sound that was carried away by the wind. I didn't feel angry anymore. I just felt profoundly, peacefully detached. I tore the thick letter in half, then in quarters, and let the small white pieces fall carelessly into the recycling bin by the door.
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Then, I walked through my small house and opened every single window. I let the loud, powerful sound of the ocean fill the rooms.
For the first time in seven long years, absolutely nothing in the house sounded like fear.