Chapter 14 - The First Painful Steps

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Two grueling weeks later, the heavy plaster casts were finally removed, replaced by rigid, medical-grade leg braces. The doctors cleared me to begin intense physical therapy.
My first session was in a brightly lit gymnasium down the hall from my room. The therapist placed a sturdy metal walker in front of my wheelchair and instructed me to try and stand.
I gripped the cold metal handles. My arms shook violently. My legs, atrophied and weak from weeks of complete immobility, felt like they were made of trembling jelly.
"Take your time, Rebecca," the therapist encouraged. "Just one inch at a time."
I pushed myself up. Blinding pain shot through my calves and up into my healing ribs. I gritted my teeth, sweat breaking out across my forehead, and forced my knees to lock. I stood up.
Every single step hurt more than I could possibly describe. But as I slowly dragged my right foot forward, a powerful realization hit me.
Each painful step was entirely mine. For the first time in years, I was moving under my own power, in my own direction.
"Mommy!"
I looked up. Standing at the far end of the therapy room, holding the hand of my sister who had flown in to take care of her, was Emma. She had a huge, glowing smile on her beautiful face.
"You did it, Mommy!" Emma cheered, jumping up and down.
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I smiled through my exhausted tears, taking one more agonizing step toward my brilliant, perfect reason for living.
"Yes, sweetheart," I whispered, my heart overflowing with love. "I did."